home is where my heart is right now..

I hardly cry..
sad movies never make me cry..
but today, i cried..
i just cried that it lasted for 40 minutes..

all the emotions have been boiling up inside of me..
waiting for the time to explode..
and today, it exploded..
in streams of tears..
stream after stream..

why?
selfishness..
losing trust..
home..
wanting to be home..
lonely..
i’m missing mama..
i’m missing ayah..
wanting to be home..
in the arms of mama and ayah..
and..
i think..

i miss him.

she~

..the heart of a woman is damn unique..
she
takes rejections
heals sorrow
builds confidence
and
allocates spaces for new hope
..she is a kind of strong..
thanks, Soya!!

taGGed by aNa~10 sexiest peopLe..

this is my third time being tagged and the tagged topic is 10 sexiest people on earth..this is the list in no particular order..

David Beckham – i’m sure everyone must have guessed that this person is a MUST on the list..no justification needed..ex-Man U player, ex-England captain and now playing for Real Madrid..he is sexy being the way he is..no one can deny that..with or without shirt..sarong or pants..football jersey or tux..being bald or having his hair tied up..the money he makes..those cars he drives..and the list goes on..

Ralph Fiennes – yes, he is that guy in Maid in Manhattan..i fell in love with him straight..he is sexy when the lines on his face crinkle up as he talks or laughs or smiles..and if u haven’t watched the movie..this is the time..and he’s the one u should kept ur eyes on..
Fabio Cannavaro
– who agrees that he is one of the most sexiest man alive? haha..so sexy..he was being appointed the Italian team captain since 1997..even before beckham..and he is STILL the captain..unlike beckham who quits after england failed to move on..ohh..nothing is sexier than cannavaro chasing a ball across the field in that tight blue Italy football jersey with sweat running down the bald head of his..

Sean Connery – yeah Ana, i agree with u..he is one of the older men who are sexy despite their age..can’t reason anymore..
Shayne Ward – he has the look, he has the voice and he has the charm to make girls screaming fanatically at him..at the age of 21, he has won the X-Factor UK 2005.. if u have the time, watch the episodes of xfactor on youtube and u’ll realise he’s the winner since the first day..

Wade Robson – if u wondering who this person might be..he’s the one who coreographed most of nsync’s moves..he even has his on show on MTV called the Wade Robson Show where he searches for new talents for the dancing industry..he’s hot when he grooves to the music..
Hans Isaac – the only Malaysian in the list..the ability to converse in the Malay Language flawlessly and like a Malay..he looks like a Malay even though he’s not..the way he brought all his characters on screen, he looks so good that u want to have a man like him in ur life..and he is so goooooooooddddd in kutub utara kutub selatan..so charming…

Won Bin – the only Korean on the list..he’s acted in autumn in my heart, friends, brotherhood and tae guk gi..he is sexy in autumn in my heart..driving a BMW and then have to fight with his best friend to win the love of his life..

Nigel Baker – one of the judges in American Next Top Model and also a professional photographer..why is he sexy? bald..dark skin..sumtimes he has the few-days-old stuble on his face..and the accent..ohhh.. i love his accent..
The Pussycat Dolls – oppss…this makes 15 sexiest people..haha..they are the sexies ladies around..and even their songs sound sexy like they are..

there u go..the 10..ohh no..the 15 most sexiest people on earth..anyone wanna add to that?

~loVe..from the eyes of children~

I received this in an email from my dearie sister. Cant help but to share this.

What does Love mean?

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8year-olds, “What does love mean?” The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think:

“When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn’t bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too.That’s love.” Rebecca- age 8

“When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.” Billy – age 4

“Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other.”Karl – age 5

“Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you anyof theirs.” Chrissy – age 6

“Love is what makes you smile when you’re tired.” Terri – age 4

“Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.” Danny – age 7

“Love is when you kiss all the time.Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss”Emily – age 8

“Love is what’s in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.” Bobby – age 7(Wow!)–>Love this one..

“If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,” Nikka – age 6

“Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.”Noelle – age 7

“Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.” Tommy – age 6

“During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn’t scared anymore.” Cindy – age 8

“My mommy loves me more than anybody .You don’t see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.” Clare – age 6

“Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.” Elaine-age 5″

Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.” Chris -age 7

“Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.” Mary Ann – age 4″

I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.” Lauren – age 4

“When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.” Karen – age 7–>cute!!

“Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn’t think it’s gross.” Mark – age 6

“You really shouldn’t say ‘I love you’ unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.” Jessica – age 8

And the final one — Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge.The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child. The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman’s yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, “Nothing, I just helped him cry”

..and his brown eyes tells his soul..

Remember the first day when I saw your face
Remember the first day when you smiled at me
You stepped to me and you said to me
I was the woman you dreamed about

Remember the first day when you called my house
Remember the first day when you took me out
We had butterflies although we tried to hide
And we both had a beautiful night

The way we held each others hand
The way we talked the way we laughed
It felt so good to
find true love
I knew right then and there you were the one

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that
he loves me cause his feelings show
When he stares at me you see he cares for me
You see how he is
so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it’s me he trusts
And he’s missing me if he’s not kissing me
And when he
looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul

Remember the first day, the first day we kissed
Remember the first day we had an argument
We apologized and then we compromised
And we haven’t argued since

Remember the first day we stopped playing games
Remember the first day you fell in love with me
It felt so good for you to say those words
Cause I felt the same way too

The way we held each others hand
The way we talked the way we laughed
It felt so good to
fall in love
And I knew right then and there you were the one

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
When he stares at me you see he cares for me
You see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it’s me he trusts
And he’s missing me if he’s not
kissing me
And when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul

I’m so happy so happy that you’re in my life
And baby now that you’re a part of me
You showed me
Showed me the
true meaning of love
And i know he loves me

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
When he stares at me you see he cares for me
You see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it’s me he trusts
And he’s missing me if he’s not kissing me
And when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul

He looks at me and his brown eyes tell his soul