*referring to the previous entry..

Wendy Cope said that there are two cures for love.. I kinda believe her actually.. However, there are a few questions worth thinking about..

• Which one do you think is easier to be done?
• Which one do you think has less risk?
• Which one do you think is much more painful than the other?
• Which one do you think will make you happy?

Come to think of it.. I dont think one way is easier than the other.. Or that the one way that we picked will not be hurting us anymore and we live happily.. Both ways have its own pros and cons.. I dont know what they are until I myself came to a junction of life and i need to decide which one of the two is best for me..

“I came to know him about a year ago.. About a few months of knowing him, he told me he has a gf.. I dont mind.. I thought that i really want to be friends with him.. And so i have to make the big decision: Wendy Cope’s Cure No 1 or Cure No 2..

Without thinking much, I opted for Cure No 2.. Yes, it was fun at the beginning.. I was happy.. I thought that by being friends, he will soon realise how cool and laid-back I am that he will come running back to me.. However, being happy and fun was only temporary.. The happiness and fun did not last long.. I felt hurt.. I felt like being stabbed by a big sharp knife each and everytime he mentioned about her.. I felt torn when he did things that no one would accept.. But, I was in denial.. I keep on telling myself that it was OK.. And it’s gonna be OK.. I told myself that this will end sooner or later.. He wont do it again.. And i kept denying myself.. Even my mom could not wake me up from the denial.. Sorry Maa..

About 10 weeks ago, I came to my senses..I became tired of living my life in denial.. Friends woke me up from my dream.. I snapped back to reality.. I abandoned Cure No 2, looked for strength and courage and went after Cure No 1.. It was not easy at the beginning.. I was tempted to dial his number and talked like we used to.. But, I have to be strong.. I cant live in denial again.. After 10 weeks of not-calling-him-during-the-weekends, I became much stronger.. I realised that I am not at loss of anything, not even him and not even one thing.. I accept that this is what life has got to offer and I accept the fact that this is what God has arranged for me and this is what is best for me..”

I am now happy that i left Cure No 2 and went after Cure No 1.. But I am not saying that Cure No 1 is way better than the other.. However, in my case, it is better that the other.. Only after I went through both cures for love.. 😉

*Dear friends (you know who you are),
Thanks for bringing me back to reality and giving me the courage and strength that I needed very much to go through this period of life..Thanks..I heart you..