Orkid-lah!

Me: Maa, Alin beli buku Nigella Lawson dengan Jamie at Home. Tengok-tengok resipi kat situ.
Mama: Buku ape?!?
Me: Ala, Nigella, pompuan yang masak-masak tu.
Mama: Oh.
Me: Dengan Jamie at Home.
Mama: Oh, Jamie Oliver tu.
Me: Ha’ah. Kan selalu kita tengok dalam TV kan dia petik-petik, cabut-cabut je dari garden dia kan, pastu terus masak kan.
Mama: Ha’ah.
Me: Yang Alin beli ni buku rancangan yang tu la. Dalam tu ada ajar macam mana nak tanam sayur-sayur, kentang, bawang semua. Mama pon boleh belajar.
Mama: Haa, oklah tu. Nanti dia pon boleh belajar tanam orkid dengan Mama.
Me: …….. Hahahahaha. *gelak guling-guling*

The good girl.

We were sitting together at the kitchen when Ainee told us about one of her childhood act, that she stuck a chewing gum to a friend’s hijab. Wani then told us about the day she went cycling that her father had to go out and find her. I told them that I have nothing similar during my childhood years. Whatever happened to me were mostly accidental and the scars that I have were not caused by being naughty.

Many may realised that I have two scars from stitches above my right eyes. I got the first scar when I was about four or five. At that time, I have started helping my mother in the kitchen. I remembered putting a chair next to the stove and wanting to stir her cooking. My brother’s nanny wanted to get something out of the drawer and as she was pulling out the drawer, I fell and my head hit the cabinet. Hence, I was taken to a clinic to get a few stitches just below the right eyebrow. I wouldn’t consider that to be my fault or I was naughty, I was just helping out. I was in Standard One when I got the second scar. I was standing at the door waiting for the teacher to come in. The wind was blowing hard. It blew the door and the door hit me right on my head. The hit left me with stitches just above my right eyebrow. I wasn’t being naughty, I got the scar because the wind was blowing. Ainee kata parut sebab kena tiup angin.

Once during kindergarten, I fell out of the van that took me to school, and I’m sure that I didn’t jump out of the van or did any stunt that caused me to fall. I’m sure that a friend has pushed me even though I have told her to stop pushing a few times. That fall caused a few of my teeth to fall out of its place. And I guess that’s the reason why my teeth are well structured, compared to my other siblings.

When I was about five, my family including my mother’s youngest brother went to Komtar in Penang to shop. My mother was busy looking at the clothes while I was busy walking in and out of the hanging clothes when suddenly, I couldn’t find my mother. I stood quietly next to a mannequin until one of the promoter was passing by and realised that I wasn’t with my parents. I was then took to the missing child counter. I remembered not crying at all until the announcement was made. Not long after that, I saw my parents coming, laughing that I went missing. They didn’t blame me either. For what I know both my mother and her youngest brother blamed each other. My mother thought that I have followed him to the toilet and he thought that I was with her all the time.

I remembered being the quiet little girl. I remembered that people used to say that I have gold in my mouth just because I didn’t talk very much. I remembered waiting quietly at the stairs for my mother, after I woke up from my nap everyday. I don’t remember my parents or other siblings recalled my bad behavior when I was little, nothing that I could think of. Both Ainee and Wani agreed that maybe I was easy to take care of because I was a good girl. Maybe that’s true. And if it’s true, I have to agree. Tee hee hee.

The good girl with her late father.

terlalu cinta

Z was describing her love life to me.

Z: I was up on a plane and was being attended by a handsome steward, so I was happy. I jumped out of the plane to sky dive and enjoyed the view very much, so I was happy again. Then, “Oh sh*t!” My parachute didn’t work. I fell hard near a cliff and I stood up soon after. I noticed that the view was marvellous and so I happy again. Not long after that, I stumbled down the cliff. Tergolek-golek. As soon as I reach the ground, pretty flowers are all there waiting for me. And so, I was happy again.
Me: And I think there’s venus fly trap somewhere among the pretty flowers.
Z: (ignoring my statement) So the conclusion is, nak happy kena parah sikit, mana boleh happy sentiasa.
Me: Haha….
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I can’t seem to agree to what Z is doing to her life because I cant stand watching her being hurt again. But, she is happy doing whatever she’s been doing. She knows that I don’t agree with her doings and yet she wants me to support whatever she does. So, she has all my love, support and prayers. Semoga terbuka pintu hati Z untuk menerima lelaki lain. Amin.

Jangan dekat atau jangan datang kepadaku lagi
Aku semakin tersiksa karena tak memilikimu
Kucoba jalani hari dengan pengganti dirimu
Tapi hatiku selalu berpihak lagi padamu

Mengapa semua ini terjadi kepadaku

Tuhan maafkan diri ini
Yang tak pernah bisa menjauh dari angan tentangnya
Namun apalah daya ini
Bila ternyata sesungguhnya aku terlalu cinta dia…

Tapi hatiku selalu berpihak lagi padamu

Mengapa semua ini terjadi kepadaku

Tuhan maafkan diri ini
Yang tak pernah bisa menjauh dari angan tentangnya
Namun apalah daya ini
Bila ternyata sesungguhnya aku terlalu cinta dia

Mengapa semua ini terjadi kepadaku

Tuhan maafkan diri ini
Yang tak pernah bisa menjauh dari angan tentangnya
Namun apalah daya ini
Bila ternyata sesungguhnya aku terlalu cinta dia…

Aku terlalu cinta dia…

motherly instinct..

On a shopping trip to the City Centre last week, I bought this beautiful dress from Next for little Miss Alya Qistina.

Cute nak pengsan tengok baju nih..

And then, yesterday, during a raya open house at Dr. Azli’s and Kak Ros’s crib, I stumble upon this cute little man, Mr Akil Asfar.

Ni pon chomel nak pengsan jugak. Yg pakai baju putih tu le. He he he.

Now, I have a feeling of wanting to have my own children. Beli baju untuk anak sendiri and dukung anak sendiri. Boleh ke?

😛